Never Stop Dreaming

Never Stop Dreaming

It is so important sometimes stop for a second and remember what we are living for. So important to have dreams and projects and wishes, because this is what makes us alive, this is what make us moving and this is why we wake up in the morning. I have to admit, that sometimes I forget that I have dreams, sometimes it is hard to remember what my dreams are, because I get too much twirled into everyday life, simple things and tasks that are inevitable.
We can’t have every day being magnificent, even though sometimes we wish we could. We keep forgetting that every day is what helps us to make our dreams reality. It’s just about finding this golden path between nott flying too high and where our every day life seems worthless and not being too low and forgetting what our dreams are.

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What I learned this weekend…

ufff….I had such a bad experience…..I got alcohol poisoned and all day yesterday was spend sleeping, waking up, going to bathroom to puke, then go back to sleep again…

I had no idea that it would be that bad, seems like I start having alcohol tolerance zero. So, there was a birthday party fot my friend from french class and they are really not good cooks and decided to make pizza with some bought dough, so I offered to help them and to make proper dough. Anyways, thought it would be nice to teach others what I know, especially as I don’t eat pizza’s anymore, not regular ones…..Maybe I would have tried this one, but the sauce that they used was full of “red list” ingredients, so I just decided to skip. Anyways, those who tasted, said that pizza was good And Keven decided that he wants to have something nice to drink, so we came to agreement to buy some rum and make Pina Coladas, which were actually very nice:

• Captain Morgan Spiced Rum
• Pinapple juice
• Coconut milk
• Ice cubes

So, the recipe seems pretty much paleo, I just should not have drunk wine before and maybe maybe all would have turned out nice….But it did not….That was worst day of my life….Last time I felt so bad was after my hen party, but then I ate whatever and mixed all alcohol possible….and Friday…no shitty food, wine and Pina Colada…except I ate some apple crumble as birthday cake, just because it had much more apples than crumbles and decided to take a chance as I almost never, literally, never cheat, because I don’t feel like and I don’t need. The only times when I allow myself to cheat is when something is homemade and I feel that it might be tasty and I want to try it and pay courtesy to the person that made food, which happens maybe once in 3 months. Anyhow…..at 20h I started feeling a bit better, drank some hot water with honey, then ate some apple sauce, decided to make myself chicken soup that would soothen my upset stomach:

• 2 chicken drumstick (or whatever chicken you have)
• 2 carrots, cubed
• 2 celery sticks, chopped
• 1 onion, diced
• some persil (dried or fresh)
• salt and pepper to taste

Put all ingredients in pot with cold water, make it boil and simmer for ~1hour or until meat falls easily from the bones. Remove meat from bones, cut into small peaces and return to pot with vegetables. Check for salt and pepper to season and that’s it. Very simple and delicious. I would have wanted to make something more spicy, the one with roasted garlic, but decided that maybe not this time….

Soup and applesauce worked their magic and finally I could relax and not think about running to bathroom to hug toilet bowl. I think I slept in total from friday night till now like 24 hours. Today I am feeling better, though still a bit shaky, decided to go for a walk as obviously there will be no training for me today…Lesson learned: training, healthy living and alcohol does not go together…

But this poster helps to think positive and go through and experiences:

recap….

Oh….wow…it’s been long time since I have been blogging, two months….and it’s not that I haven’t been training or cooking or learning something….I have been doing all of it and even more and that might be the reason why I did not have that much time to blog or I just did not force myself enough…But I am back and I have what to share….

Training:

Since my September training, I did improve on my olympic lifts and lost it again )))

My snatch is still the same: 115#, but I got 145# on clean and jerk and 150# on clean. Now I totally lost my jerk and I am very unwilling to do it and I have hit so many times my chest while cleaning that sometimes I just back up, even though I know that I can actually hit big numbers. I am just scared and have to work work with it….

My Front Squat increased to 186# last time when I checked, my Back Squat is 230#, My 5RM OHS is 120# and max. 130#. Bench press:165#. I have to say that I feel much more comfortable working with strength exercises than barbell….Maybe because in strength you have less chances to be hurt ))

I still don’t have my muscle up, but it is very close….I am able to make few chest-to-bar, but I can’t connect them….I still work on my bar muscle-up and kipping toes to bar…

My endurance increased a lot, probably because I do Outlaw training minimum 4 times a week, usually 5 and then I do box workouts about 3 times a week, ideally after Outlaw workout. So, I work out 5-6 times a week, on average 2 hours a day

All in all, I am moving forward towards my goal but it is far from being accomplished. Even though usually I dominate in my box and almost always hit leader board, I am far from that when I check how others are doing in Outlaw. It’s like two different worlds that I live in…In one most of the time I feel like looser (except conditioning and sometimes strength part) in the other I am leader I need both of them….

French:

My course is going really well….I have improved my french a lot and now feel quite comfortable using it every day. I started talking with Keven in french as well, at least 50% of the time It also includes course on job search, so we are writing our CV, motivation letter and preparing for interviews in french and getting to know Quebec job market.

Cooking:

This obviously will require separate post, but I have been trying out some new recipes. Obviously desserts are a must, but I do have some food recipes up in my sleeve.

Nora:

My little Nora became already a bog dog and started her first heat. Now she is much more calmer and we gonna start doing some training courses with her. She already knows a lot of commands that I have taught her, but I want to have it perfect and maybe participate in competitions some day, so I want to make sure that I put all effort in training my dog, especially because she will be around us at least 10 years and will see our children growing Here is the picture of her getting ready for winter

Awake dreaming

“One’s real life is so often the life that one does not lead” – Oscar Wilde

I’ve been thinking sonoften and torturing myself with distinctik between real life and dream life. The distinction between conscious and unconscious, real and unreal. I am often confused when I feel as if I would seeing my life from outside. That makes me feel as if I would be an object of matrix, especially after having a period of really vivid dreams that resemble so much reality. Then I start wondering what is reality, where is it’s limits. Descarte famously stated “I think, therefore I am”. But then does it mean that when I think in my dream and try to solve problem that occurs in my dream, I am living the dream, so it would be reality given at that moment. Sometimes it is so hard to wake up that silently in my head I wish I would never have to wake up, but I do, because I feel I have, because I don’t want to miss my life.
But sometimes every day life is so routinous that it does not even feel real. There is this saying “Days are long, but years are short”. Sometimes I do feel that my life is a dream, because I can’t tell what I did last week. Well, I can tell, but tgat would be probably the same what I did a week before or before before. Probably that is why I like trying out new things and having projects, because I would not feel as if my days passed unnoticed and then converted into unnoticed years. When I think about it, the thing that saves me from overthinking is that if you ask me at any given moment if I am happy, I would say that I am. But when I think about the story of my life, there is not that much to tell. Wht do we alwqys feel that we have to tell the story? Douglas Coupland in his book “Player number one” said that there are only few special moments in everyones life and all the rest is everydayness. Does it mean that we life only to get those special moments?
The facts of your life seems to be much more important than how we feel in our everyday life. Our work defines who we are. I remember when I came Canada and I was not working, and I was meeting new people, they were asking me what is my job, I was replying that I don’t work, it was so hard for then to realize that there are plenty stuff to do if you don’t work. Actually, probabky you feel much more alive than working, because work, if you don’t like it or don’t enjoy that much even more deepens the feeling of absurdity of life. As Kierkegaard said “we are thrown into this world” and Sartre agreed with that and added that despite the fact that we are thrown into here, we still hold absolute responsibily for our lifes. So when you think about that… It doesn’t matter the statistical facts of our lifes, cause we are gonna die and statistic will die with us, all that matters how you feel your every moment, that is how you gonna feel about your life at the end, whether it would be dream or reality.

To think or not to think about happiness

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About opinion

Opinion is the medium between ignorance and knowledge. – Plato

First things first

At my calendar there was ghis thought that i consider important to note down:

All too often, what’s important gets pushed aside while we deal with what’s urgent – but in the end, what’s important is what’s important. Remind yourself of your real priorities by doing first things first.

That is so true at least in my own life, I always puah aside what is important to deal what is urgent and postpone or never come to what really matters:)

This weekend Couchsurfing experience

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So, this weekend I had my first Couchsurfers in Quebec. I have been hosting people in Vilnius (Lithuania) and Barcelona (Spain),  now it came time for Quebec. I have been member of Couchsurfing I think since 2008 when I went to Brazil for my Capoeira workshop. It is really nice experience and culture sharing. I have met a lot of wonderful people from couch surfing that either surfed my couch, or I have been hosted by or even just meeting at the CS meeting. Finally, I had my CS experience in Barcelona. It was great. I was hosting two women from Washington who came to Quebec to stay in Ice hotel for a nigh and decided also to do some couch surfing. Sasha was the one to write a request to me and Marcy came along with her. I accepted Sasha’s request because she read my profile, found common interest point and put an effort in writing a request. Often, too often, I get lame requests where people don’t even manage to write my name or write a wrong name or just provide detail of their arrival rather than including why should I host them. Sometimes people just don’t understand that Couchsurfing is not only about free accommodation and I am not interested in letting someone to stay in MY house just because they are arriving to my city. CS is about sharing experiences and meeting people that you would want to meet anyway. As I always say, it is hosting a friend that you haven’t yet met. Maybe because I do have requirement for the people that I host most of my experiences were great from both aspects: being host and being guest.

Getting back to my guests…So, we had lost of fun as there is a winter festival happening in Quebec, so there are lots of activities. We also went to Crossfit training as the girls do that back home. I really enjoyed it and even consider maybe start doing Crossfit as well as I like challenges and competition. Then we went to do some rock climbing in my indoor climbing gym. I think they enjoyed it, even though probably Sasha was a bit disappointed by herself as rock climbing is much harder than just pushing weights and require a lot of coordination, strength and endurance. Sasha for me appeared to be very competitive, even in some sense negatively competitive as she had to compete about everything. She w as competing in every conversation either with Marcy or with me. So, I found it really interesting to observe. I like to compete, but I like silent competition, because I think that you don’t need to talk about your strengths, you need to be able to demonstrate them without showing off. So, all in all, I would conclude that Sasha is feeling very insecure inside and she always need approval by the others that she is worth something. However, I think that there are many people like that out there is the world. Don’t get me wrong, but I think that western society model, especially american culture has a lot to do with people not feeling secure about themselves and feeling a need to prove themselves in every step. I just wanted sometimes to say to her that there is no need to prove anything that I don’t care at all if you are better than someone,  that you are on vacations and should just simply relax. There was one thing, however, that I  disliked….that was her continuous mention of money and saving and showing me if they made something for us. First of all, if you are staying for free, there is no need to say that you are staying for free, because it is obvious. If you do something nice to me, like get me bottle of wine, there is no need to say that you got that, because it makes me feel uncomfortable as if I should be grateful for something. I should not, because in CS in it normal to do something for your host as a sign of appreciation as it is normal for the host to make sure that your guest are feeling comfortable and share your meal with them. But I don’t accentuate after lunch or breakfast that I got them lunch or breakfast, because it is not about that. I simply share and I felt from Sasha that it was rather calculation than simple act. I don’t know exactly how to explain that, it just did not feel authentic. I am sure that she doesn’t even know that about herself and definitely had no bad intentions, she just has a lot of insecurities that come out in somewhat inappropriate ways. And regarding me, I just feel better writing about it, because it makes me feel better as I don’t want to have any negative feeling and her general behaviour and respect to my house was great and I could not expect for better guest.

But I really liked Marcy and I felt instant connection with her, because she has really nice personality and had no need to prove anything.  We shared a lot of common character traits and passions and I feel that she is the type of person that could be my friend.

Concluding I would say that this couch surfing experience was definitely positive one, I had a lot of fun and great conversations, I had a chance to experience something new and maybe found new activity. The girls  in general were really great, respectful, clean and friendly.